don’t turn around and tell me something i don’t wanna know. i couldn’t take a revelation now. just keep it in and mull it over. here we are; more than tipsy by a little bit, coming together in and out of it. chemically united for one night more and now i’m not falling apart. no, i’m not falling apart again tonight. all in all it’s like a ripple in the water now. i’ll cross my fingers if i'm all alone, close my eyes and feel the river flow. i’ll let it go, send a letter to my furrowed brow. “there’s no reason left to worry now. it’s all over and we’re moving forward.” and i thought this was something that we’d figure out, head up and shoulder to the wheel again. like a dozen times we tried before. i’m giving up ‘cause pushing forward is all i ever do. i’ve gotten tired of avoiding it for these thirty-something trips around the sun. how am i not falling apart?